It was stupid to be nervous. Alec told himself that over and over again as he waited for Magnus to open the door. It wasn't like this was their first date. It was special but there was no reason for his heart to race or for him to want to set down the flowers so he could fuss with his collar and cuffs. He knew he looked fine. He'd checked before he'd knocked. There was no fear that Magnus would change his mind. They had been together long enough that he knew his boyfriend loved him.
But no matter how much he told himself all those things, butterflies still fluttered wildly in his chest before Magnus opened the door.
He had arranged dates before but nothing like this. Magnus didn't even know it was his 'birthday'. Alec wasn't even sure if he should tell Magnus that part of the idea since it was mostly an excuse to have a day every year to show his boyfriend how much he loved him and have something normal that everyone else had.
His heart stuttered as Magnus opened the door, his thoughts vanishing when he caught sight of what his boyfriend was wearing. Magnus always looked gorgeous to him no matter what he wore but the suit was cut to emphasize everything physical that had caught Alec's eye when they'd first met, making him feel that rush of happiness and awe that had caused him to give Magnus that little, hopeful smile at the party. Someone as amazing as Magnus wanted him. That alone would have made him dizzy with happiness.
Then, the significance of the color crept through his mind. Black and gold...
Whether it was intentional or not, his boyfriend was wearing the Shadowhunter colors for marriage. For a moment, he couldn't speak... could barely think of anything except how much he wanted to see Magnus wearing those colors again as they promised to love each other through this life and the next. He wanted it so much that it made his chest ache, that longing reflected in his eyes.
And he was holding flowers that were a mundane wedding bouquet. Roses and orange blossoms and bright little blooms that were supposed to help tell Magnus how he felt about him. The florist had thought it was odd, then had been amused when he had explained what he'd wanted, telling her that the person he was giving them to had an interest in 'old fashioned' customs.
Suddenly, Alec wished he'd thought to buy a ring for Magnus even if he wasn't sure if his boyfriend would say yes.
When Magnus spoke, he realized he was staring, then realized his boyfriend had as well. Grinning shyly at the compliment, he offered the flowers to his love. "They are. You look..." For a moment, he tried to think of something that would describe how he felt. "Like you did when I realized how much I love you."
It might not be as flattering as 'stunning' but it seemed to fit. Seeing Magnus in gold and black was more than just beautiful, it made him want a lifetime with his boyfriend.
Stepping into the apartment, he offered Magnus the flowers, trying to think of something to say, but too caught up in those colors to stop himself from blurting out the question that kept tumbling through his mind. "Do you know what those colors mean to Shadowhunters?" His voice sounded soft and hopeful no matter how much he tried to keep his tone normal. Maybe Magnus wouldn't notice and if he did, maybe he would ignore it if he didn't really know how important black and gold was to the Nephilim.
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Date: 2013-11-21 03:15 pm (UTC)But no matter how much he told himself all those things, butterflies still fluttered wildly in his chest before Magnus opened the door.
He had arranged dates before but nothing like this. Magnus didn't even know it was his 'birthday'. Alec wasn't even sure if he should tell Magnus that part of the idea since it was mostly an excuse to have a day every year to show his boyfriend how much he loved him and have something normal that everyone else had.
His heart stuttered as Magnus opened the door, his thoughts vanishing when he caught sight of what his boyfriend was wearing. Magnus always looked gorgeous to him no matter what he wore but the suit was cut to emphasize everything physical that had caught Alec's eye when they'd first met, making him feel that rush of happiness and awe that had caused him to give Magnus that little, hopeful smile at the party. Someone as amazing as Magnus wanted him. That alone would have made him dizzy with happiness.
Then, the significance of the color crept through his mind. Black and gold...
Whether it was intentional or not, his boyfriend was wearing the Shadowhunter colors for marriage. For a moment, he couldn't speak... could barely think of anything except how much he wanted to see Magnus wearing those colors again as they promised to love each other through this life and the next. He wanted it so much that it made his chest ache, that longing reflected in his eyes.
And he was holding flowers that were a mundane wedding bouquet. Roses and orange blossoms and bright little blooms that were supposed to help tell Magnus how he felt about him. The florist had thought it was odd, then had been amused when he had explained what he'd wanted, telling her that the person he was giving them to had an interest in 'old fashioned' customs.
Suddenly, Alec wished he'd thought to buy a ring for Magnus even if he wasn't sure if his boyfriend would say yes.
When Magnus spoke, he realized he was staring, then realized his boyfriend had as well. Grinning shyly at the compliment, he offered the flowers to his love. "They are. You look..." For a moment, he tried to think of something that would describe how he felt. "Like you did when I realized how much I love you."
It might not be as flattering as 'stunning' but it seemed to fit. Seeing Magnus in gold and black was more than just beautiful, it made him want a lifetime with his boyfriend.
Stepping into the apartment, he offered Magnus the flowers, trying to think of something to say, but too caught up in those colors to stop himself from blurting out the question that kept tumbling through his mind. "Do you know what those colors mean to Shadowhunters?" His voice sounded soft and hopeful no matter how much he tried to keep his tone normal. Maybe Magnus wouldn't notice and if he did, maybe he would ignore it if he didn't really know how important black and gold was to the Nephilim.